“Dreams”

I am the one who dreams the impossible
I am the one who forgives the unforgivable
I am the one who believes in a probable cause
I am the one who makes her life mean something more.
I look at life from the eyes of no regrets
I look at the meaning behind every story
I look at strangers with love and acknowledgment
I look at one’s shoes and wonder if my feet will fit.
I dream of a place where every being can survive as this
I dream of more possibilities than others may believe in
I dream of the truth and the reasons behind it
I dream of a much more beautiful reality.
I will never cease dreaming.

“My Last Wishes”

WRITTEN AUGUST 15TH, 2009

To all my dearest friends,

To those who care and those who do not,

When it becomes my end,

Will you be there for me like I have thought?

When my body is laid to rest,

What will be said of me,

Will you all see I have always tried my best,

To be the best I could be?

When I am done with this life and move on,

Will you all truly miss me,

Will you gather, one by one,

Over my open casket, remembering who I used to be?

To all my friends so dear,

While I am lying on my death bed,

Will you all be near,

When I am pronounced dead?

Will you sing songs of wishes,

Will you hold my limp, lifeless hand,

And give me goodbye kisses,

Would you all take a stand?

To all my friends I love,

Please stay by my side,

As you watch my soul fly like a dove,

To what lies beyond the sky.

“Flight of a Dove”

WRITTEN IN AUGUST OF 2009:

What is love,

A feeling unexplained,

Visualize the flight of a dove,

Love is uncontained.

My heart is in a vise,

Held by ball and chain,

Wouldn’t it be nice,

To feel love again?

Try me,

Cry with me,

Love me,

Die with me.

Try me,

Sing with me,

Put your trust in me,

Dance all night with me.

Help me to love all,

Every living being,

You are the only one I can call,

You make my heart sing.

I have tried wishing upon a star,

Nothing came of that,

My mind races like that shooting star,

Around, around, and back.

You are my only solution,

You are my one true love,

You are my imagination,

You are the flight of the dove.

“My Angel In Disguise”

I love you,

I love you, My angel in disguise.

I am lost inside your eyes,

I feel you in my dreams,

You hold me in your arms, so close.

I love you,

I love you, My dream come true,

Do not release me, hold on tight.

I love you,

Words cannot express,

I love you, you filled my emptiness.

I love you,

You have made my dreams come true,

I love you, Just for being you,

So real and true.

Mistakes… Too late,

What do I do if I have to wait?

Last chance, to take his hand,

One more dance to find out where we stand.

I take this time,

To close my eyes,

To see precisely what I did wrong in my life.

Suspended by my broken energy,

I never knew what he truly thought of me.

Please take my hand,

For one last dance,

Just understand,

Where we stand.

Who I am is a never-ending mystery,

To anyone and everyone, including me.

I grip a pass to a ride and it’s called “My Life,”

I wish you’d hold me tight so we can dance all night.

To feel your passion and soft whispers in my ear,

I hold this image so I know you’ll forever be here.

Oh, never let me go,

Oh, please never let me go.

“Take My Hand”

A mother’s true love,

Shows no boundary,

You provide to cold hands a glove,

You help me feel my safety.

Your smile lights up my day,

When I am feeling down,

You teach me another way,

To turn my life around.

You are my angel in disguise,

Always lending a helping hand,

The glistening in your eyes,

You are my footprints in the sand.

I am more grateful than you know,

For everything you do,

I see your bright aura glow,

My angel, my mother… I Love You!

“A Mother’s Unconditional Love” Dedicated to my mother, Jean Carr

“Beauty”

What is beauty?

You are beauty,

I am beauty,

Together, we are beautiful.

Our eyes met,

We knew at that very moment,

There was no question about it,

We would be one.

With the same dreams,

The same ambitions,

In finding each other,

We have a promising future.

You have become a part of me,

A part of me I cannot deny,

I have become a part of you,

We have become one.

What is beauty?

You are beauty,

I am beauty,

Together, we are beautiful.

“Panic Room”

One moment,

Full of life,

Seconds later,

I try to survive.

I feel myself slipping,

Deep into dark dreams,

I sense my chest gripping,

But can’t place what this means.

A strong intense shiver,

My body begins to quake,

My soul feels a quiver,

I am no longer awake.

My memory is gone,

There is darkness all around,

I do not feel strong,

When the panic surrounds.

All of a sudden,

I hear my name,

I feel like a burden,

So full of shame.

Now I am awake,

Yet, so unaware,

I’m surrounded by love,

I gave such a scare.

As my body aches,

From head to toe,

It is a feeling I believe,

Only I will know.

My mind is full of confusion,

I cannot seem to let it go,

I am over this intrusion,

Until, again, the panic shows.

“A Falling Star”

A small dream,

Held by a big heart,

A love lost,

Longing a new start.

With no other choice,

Drowning in tears,

Only some hear his voice,

Only some lend their ears.

A dark smile,

Followed by a bright light,

And soon enough,

It has taken his life.

Not knowing what to do,

Or where else to go,

He slipped into a dream,

Only he will know.

This mass of destruction,

Taken over by pain,

Has caused his obstruction,

Where there were miles to gain.

So young, yet, so old,

So childish but wise,

He felt extreme cold,

As he closed his eyes.

Though he had so much to learn,

And so much more to see,

He felt a feeling… a strong burn,

This was meant to be.

He was loved by one,

He was loved by all,

But he fell very hard,

And it became his last fall.